Open letter to GOD

All I want to say is thank you, for the love, the mercy and the opportunity you present to me.
All I want to say is that I love you, I need you, and most importantly I love the way you love me.
All I want to say is that you are the apple of my eye, you are my lifeline when all seems lost and bleek.
All I want to say is that I am grateful to have a father like you, not just an earthly father but a heavenly one who supplies all my needs according to your riches and glory.
All I want to say is that you are my inspiration, my reason to wake up every morning with new ideas and dreams.
All I want to say is that I am weak, fragile and on the verge of break-down and I know I can count on you for a new life.
All in all, you are, you will always be, the one I turn to in times of darkness, you are the one who dries my tears, even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I shall fear no evil for you have my back.
I want to thank you for being my eyes and ears, for being my life, for being my back-up, for believing in my dreams and visions.
I love you, I need you, I am your child, and I know you will be patient with me when the world chooses to put stumbling blocks in my way.
You are MAJESTIC and my eie PAPA!
KIM EPISODES

MAN UP,and just do it!

I recently went for an audition in Rosebank. On my way there, I met Nomsa Buthelezi, a very bubbly and warm individual. She did not recognize me @ first but when I introduced myself, she realized that I am the lady that opened the "Creative Minds Women Arts Festival"organised by Julian Mokoto-Seleke in Mahikeng in Aug 2013 with a poem titled "Imbokodo", and closed with my one-man production "Vat 'n Sit" and in the end took home the "Overall Best Actress Award" for 2013.

She then burst into a very loud laugh shouting "Oh my word, it is you". We both were so excited and clicked immediately. Then our journey started.

She told me exactly what to expect when we get to the audition, who will say what, and how I should re-act. At first I thought she might be over-exaggerating the situation about auditions but she was indeed right.

The lady who registers the actors @ the reception was so mean to me simply because I am a new face and she wanted me to feel that she was incharge. I was so embarrassed and felt really unworthy but then I remembered Nomsa's first words " toughen up because this industry can be cruel".

Nomsa advised me to stay grounded and true to myself irrespective of the fame and fortune I might bump into. She shared her experiences of the industry and how she always had to work extra hard because of her weight. How people always perceived that because you don't have the right "look", the right "skintone", the right "size", the right "accent" you are  just not good enough.

In today's world, television has conditioned our mind to believe that natural talent is no longer a requirement to be in a good television soap, all you need is the right look. And by that they actually mean you have to be skinny, bleached, blond and a robot for you to be accepted as an acceptable actress, who is taken seriously and can actually earn a living from the talent!

Nomsa is a real inspiration, one woman I will have embedded in my heart and memory forever. For she has initiated me,shared her life and career experience with me. She became open and shared her deepest thoughts with someone she doesn't really know, simply because she believes in her talent and is not threatened by new talent on the block.

She spoke of the beauty of theatre and how loyal theatre is."It will never abandon you when you grow old, or gain a few kilos, or loose an arm or a leg, or even when half your face is burned" she said.

Theatre is life and the audience have an immediate reaction to your performance, so you just know if you delivered or not. She urged me to continue in that route and never forget my humble beginnings and a home that theatre is to me.

Through that experience, I learned that in this world people might not always believe in you, or you might not be the model they are looking for. But someone out there will recognize your talent and embrace it. I now know that this industry is not child's play and you have to work hard to claim your place in it.

It is all about trying, praying, having faith and just delivering what you know you are capable of. The journey is long and tough, but the fruits are all worth it.

To Nomsa, I just want to say that I think you are a natural. A kasi girl who never allowed any circumstances and heartbreak to get you down. You are like a well oiled machine, versatile and   expressive with no fear of how you will be perceived. You have done a wonderful job by just being you.

I hope you enjoyed the "chips with all the lovely sauces". You made my day and most importantly, you instilled the confidence I needed to tackle these auditions head on.

Nobody will ever succeed in getting me down, no matter how famous you are. And I will do whatever I can to make sure that I get there because , I DO HAVE A LOT TO OFFER to the industry.

And like you rightfully said "Kim, I think the industry will be excited to see you, they have no idea, who has just landed". I am manning up and following my dreams.

Love you Norms, you are GOLDEN!

KIMEPISODES

In YOU I rest my life

As a young person in the world, my life tends to be full of drama. I then realize that some of these drama's in my life, I have created. I have made myself available to be scrutinized and judged according to my behaviour.

Sometimes I feel that I might have been misjudged but who am I to judge and pronounce about life.

What role do I have to play in this world to ensure that my drama is limited?

I feel that this is one of the things I cannot change. In a case where I feel the drama is too overwhelming, I just go down on my knees and pray to God for guidance.

I choose to be still and listen to the voice deep inside and allow natural healing to take place.

So if you are feeling like the world overwhelms you and you have no where to go, you feel like your family and friends don't understand your situation, just bow down and pray.

This is one of my favorite verses from the BIBLE which has the ability to bring you to a place where you understand the love that God has for you and the promises He has made you in your life.

Psalm 23
King James Version (KJV)
23 The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.

2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.

3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.

4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.

Be blessed and keep holding on, the storm is almost over.

KIM EPISODES

Blinded out of sight

Take those blinds off,
The chains of oppression and discrimination
Take those blinds off,
The roadblock to your destination
Take those blinds off,
The excuse for a heartbreak
Take those blinds off,
The limited rule to your rules
Take those blinds off
That tree that bears no fruits
Take those blinds off
The swiss cheese with a hundred holes
Take those blinds off
The blockage permanently damaged
Take those blinds off
Cause he's cheating,
Take those blinds off
And U know it
Take those blinds off
You've seen the signs
Take those blinds off
You've embraced the lies
Take those blinds off
You've accepted that U are nothing without him, and He knows you'll say "YES"
Take those blinds off
Cause U r dying inside
Take those blinds off
Cause U r not what He needs
Take those blinds off
Cause the repercussions are too overwhelming
Take those blinds off
Cause U don't need such a marriage
Take those blinds off
Cause He doesn't appreciate U
Take those blinds off
Cause loud is all U know
Take those blinds off
Cause U will never change
Take those blinds off
Cause U r beautiful, sassy, smart in your way, believable, and U are a visionary
Take those blinds off
Cause U are talented, picky and ready
Take those blinds off
For its not your fault
Take those blinds off
Cause the sun is much brighter outside
Take those blinds off
And the rivers will still flow naturally
Take those blinds off
And the storms will be temporary
Take those blinds off
And the mountains will still be there
Take those blinds off
It cuts no polony,atchaar,snoek,  no cheese and butters no bread
Take those blinds off
It won't change the price of bread and milk even petrol
Take those blinds off
Cause U are simply amazing
You are the epitome of beauty
The reason why the world would miss out not knowing you
Take those blinds off

You are IT, BELIEVE IT and U are set for life.

KIM EPISODES

IT'S ABOUT YOU

 Girls and Boys, the time has come for you to take over your life. If your life has been taken over by your boyfriend or girlfriend,it is time to say "ENOUGH".
You have the ability to spot a man or woman who is insecure and his/her mission is to get you down when he/she knows you have a greater ability to be what you know you are.
The problem or mistake we make is to think that our partners have our best interest @ heart but only to find out that these people in our lives were placed there to show you what you are not supposed to have in your life. These partners often fail to realize when you have "caught on the game".
Now let me let you in on a secret that has been kept for a long time, but this particular secret has also been available @ your disposal since you were born into this world. This secret is  called "the gut feeling". This feeling is available to all human beings and it only requires an individual to connect with themselves, their inner being, and to realize when there is something wrong.
I am simply saying if you have a dream or vision that your partner cannot see, don't blame him/her, just do what you know is inside and by the time you fulfill your destiny, he/she will regret not supporting you from the onset.
Like the philosophers and professors say "revenge is a dish best served cold". So boo-boo while you drive in your dream car and live in your dream house, eating the best dishes the world has to offer and simply appreciating the blessing you have been given, the right to "BREATH".
Appreciate the fact that so many people have "tapped" today but you did not, which simply means that you need to do something to achieve what you are destined to receive.
Your idea, your vision, your dream might seem too BIG for the world or for people you think should or would support you. The sooner you acknowledge that there is a difference between you and them, you will really begin to find fulfillment.

YOU ARE THE ONE DREAMING, NOW ACT!!!!

HOME

I woke up with a smile on my face and butterflies in my stomach, simply because its Friday and mostly because I am going home.

I am going to see all the people I love, the people who motivate me to wake up every morning and live my life to the fullest.

I hope today will be filled with love, peace and happiness that we all deserve. I pray that God, the Almighty provides like he always does and gives all of us who are on the road traveling mercies.

So put on your smile and be jolly because you have been blessed with another day to just be what you were intended to be, you are YOU.

Let's play this one out with Michael Buble's "Home"

"Home"

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky, I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
This was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In either Paris or Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
And let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It'll all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

Signing off....

KIM EPISODES